New Beginnings

With each year comes a new beginning. I know we are almost at the end of January, but it is still the first of 2009. This year I have so many challenges to overcome, ideas to see into fruition and life to live! I am so excited to have had the chance to begin this new year with my husband.

2008 brought so many challenges I was unsure I could overcome. I was so happy to have made it. I literally cried as the year came to an end. I cried huge crocodile tears of joy!!! It was such a tough year for me! Patrick was gone for most of last year. We finished our 14 month deployment, left our home, moved to a new one, continued dealing with my illness, welcomed family, lost family, found new friends, and just crawled through it until we reached the end.

Now I am back to focusing on my health again. I was told two months ago that I need to have another surgery. This time the doctor is adament that I have a full hysterectomy and gave me a big no to the babies. I told Patrick that I am not ready for it yet. I know that there is another tumor, and I know that I am sick and in pain, but I am not ready.

I have started this new year researching alternative health methods. I do not believe that the only alternatives in our lives are surgery! There has to be another way for me to try and gain back control over my life. I know that I will have to have the tumor removed, but why do I have to have anything further done at this time. To be a 29 year old woman who will have to be on hormones the rest of my life is not an enjoyable prospect! I refuse to go with the flow without first seeking out alternatives!

So, saying that I am starting this blog. I have also started a group for my friends and their friends to support each other in healthy living. I really believe that this is the way of the future for me. I plan to pursue this 110%! Yes, I can!

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